I didn’t know when I was a child,
what it meant to be a mum.
I didn’t count how many times
you wiped my shitty bum.
I never asked just how it felt
to be deprived of sleep.
I didn’t think my hungry cries
would make your nipples weep.
I didn’t know hard it was
to feed me through the night,
And never get a moments peace
to even have a shite.
I didn’t realise when I learned
to crawl and walk and speak,
That your knees and back and patience
would soon be up shit creek.
I didn’t know the sacrifices
a mum makes for their child
I didn’t see the work it takes
to stop us going wild.
I didn’t know the heights of stress
kids put their mothers through.
I never checked the effect
my selfish actions had on you.
I didn’t know my happiness
was always your priority.
I didn’t know how much kids take
their toll on mum’s sobriety.
It took a while for me to see
that you were more than ‘Mum’,
My feisty female role model,
like I hoped I could become.
Now that I’m a mother
in a family of my own.
I feel the power of loving your kid
with every frigging bone.
And some days it’s ok to think
your kid’s a little shit,
I’m sure you had those thoughts of me,
when I look back on it.
Now I can appreciate
the crap I put you through.
I can marvel at the lengths you went
to make my dreams come true.
Now I know just how much help
my Granny must have been.
Now I’m a mum, I need you
as the Granny on my team.
Now it’s my turn to sing your songs
to a gorgeous child that’s mine
But you should know
‘You are (and always will be) my sunshine’.
#mothersday #poemsformums
Unbalanced Woman 